My inspirational blog, "LovingSoulsPathway;" (Jan. 2010-Aug. 2015) has literally disappeared. Yes, I had been advised to write each post as a Word document, then copy and paste into my blog, but I was not worried. I never considered that the blog host would sell-out and the "free" blogs would be erased! A very special creative door has closed, and with it prayers and stories I wrote about my parents' final years, my prayer gifts to them, memorial tributes, and my grieving and healing steps. The sheer realization that I cannot read these entries again feels as if I have lost my mother and father for a second time.
What's a broken-hearted woman like me to do?
Pray, until I get to my gratitude.
Oh God, I pray with an aching heart
I heaped so much me into those writings
Each connected me to loving memories
Helping me stay close to Mom and Dad
No why to be answered, no do-over offer
God help me, I hear that door slam shut
Oh God, you know my heart's intentions
I "know" that no love is ever deleted
Each offering exists in the cosmic sea
Where creativity, visions, and love live-on
But honestly, I just want them back again
God please listen, I can't yet let them go
Oh God, I can feel your tender smile
I hear you say, "I gave you a new door"
Each ending truly begets a beginning
Support abounds for closings and openings
Such loving beings have rallied round
God thank you, I am opening my "next" now
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